"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord....
I turned 18 a few days
ago (April 2) so I decided to finally give a blog update.
I heard the question asked on the radio today if you were either dreading getting older or looking forward to it. For me, if I ignore the number part, ( I do enjoy being young) then I look forward to it- because I look forward to seeing the different stages God walks me through in my life. But if you would have asked my that questions two years ago, I would have flat out answered I dreaded it...
I heard the question asked on the radio today if you were either dreading getting older or looking forward to it. For me, if I ignore the number part, ( I do enjoy being young) then I look forward to it- because I look forward to seeing the different stages God walks me through in my life. But if you would have asked my that questions two years ago, I would have flat out answered I dreaded it...
When I was 15 (Or around that time) it became my big dream, my big goal, to change the world by time I was sixteen. That's how I wanted to celebrate that age, I wanted to know I had done something great (or was at lest on the path) I wanted to know that my life wasn't meaningless, I wanted to make an impact, a lasting impact for God.
Big surprise, 16 came and went and the world remained the same. My life remained boring and dull, and if I remember correctly I think I probably cried the day before my 16th birthday- cried because I had failed my dreams.
Never less, I kept pushing, my dreams to change the world grew bigger- and the new goal became 17.... again, that didn't work, and I found myself down in the dumps, wondering what good my life was if I couldn't make an impact for God. I wanted the change the world for God, I wanted him to use me in mighty ways- but I was stuck at home, doing dishes, schoolwork, and taking care of animals. (Don't get me wrong, I love our critters)
April 2, 2012, I turned 18. And for the first time in a while, I didn't beat myself up over not doing something 'big' for God. Because God, over the course of the year I was 17, had been working on my heart. He has helped me see that I don't need to do some grand thing in order to be used by him. I've been shown that within my desire to change the world while I was still young, I was attempting to rush God and myself. God has plans for my life, (Jeremiah 29:11) and these plans will be worked out step by step, day by day, → within Gods timing; not mine. ← (There was a lesson I had to learn!)
Do I still desire to make an impact; to change the world? The simple answer is yes! I'm still a little too eager to launch into the world and rattle it up. However, my focus is no longer around that dream, my new goal is to live every day in faithfulness, Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, - Colossians 3:23
I want to do every task handed to me with joy and satisfaction with the stage God has me in; trusting fully that God will reveal his plan in his perfect timing and in his perfect way.
I'll admit, its a process, a part of me still gets itchy when I think of all the years that have already gone by, but I'm much farther along then I was. As I look back over my last couple of birthdays, I definitely see something changing in my heart, a change only God could do. Needless to say, I have way more peace about growing older than I did before.
...plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Do I still desire to make an impact; to change the world? The simple answer is yes! I'm still a little too eager to launch into the world and rattle it up. However, my focus is no longer around that dream, my new goal is to live every day in faithfulness, Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, - Colossians 3:23
I want to do every task handed to me with joy and satisfaction with the stage God has me in; trusting fully that God will reveal his plan in his perfect timing and in his perfect way.
I'll admit, its a process, a part of me still gets itchy when I think of all the years that have already gone by, but I'm much farther along then I was. As I look back over my last couple of birthdays, I definitely see something changing in my heart, a change only God could do. Needless to say, I have way more peace about growing older than I did before.
...plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
No comments:
Post a Comment